cryingontheinside | [fail private entry] 002

[Dexter hasn't tried to lock this so much as, given up. He has no one else to discuss any of this with so he's putting his jumbled thoughts here - and since all his locks break under the supreme wisdom of the community, he's not giving it the satisfaction this time-

based on last night's episode, spoilers ahoy]

You think you know a person until the truth comes pouring out, like so much blood. Maybe my foster sister and I have more in common than I thought; perhaps, she could even-

But there's Lumen now. And this feels right. Unlike anyone I've ever encountered.

It's time to let out my primal self and show the world who Jordan Chase really is. Or at least, my world. A world Lumen has somehow infiltrated. And now I'm not so much responsible for her as she is my equal. Suddenly, Harry's Law is not Marshall Law and I feel myself making it up as I go along...

Tick tick tick, as the man in question would say. That's the sound of your life running out.

Yes, Mr. Sparks, I will take it. I will take what I want and you won't stop me. I'm only following your advice, after all.

And even as I feel my ritual changing; evolving -- I am not frightened. I do not dread this break in routine. I relish it, I want it to come, more than anything else I've ever-

DDDers, I have a very important question for you all, and I implore you, if you are reading this please take a moment to answer to the best of your ability. Do some people deserve to die? Or at the very least, not deserve to live?

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There's no way to prove you're wrong, I guess.

No. Or that I'm not. But I will find out why Claire knows that name.

Probably by being nosy. She does that.

She didn't get it from me, though. That's my concern.

Why is it bad for her to know?

Because Rudy... he didn't deserve to live.

[...]

Maybe she's on his side. She liked my former brother when he was here, and he doesn't deserve to live either.

He's not alive anymore. She can't be on his side. So I want to know how she knows that name.

Maybe you're actually from the same world and she knew him when she was alive.

[SHE REALLY, REALLY WANTS CLAIRE TO BE A SERIAL KILLER'S ACCOMPLICE because then everyone else would hate her as much as she does fffff]

...if she knew Rudy, she wouldn't be alive. His MO was young, attractive women. [it's very hard not to call him Brian but it's important to him for a reason he won't analyze, to keep that name to himself-]

She's not that attractive.

Did he ever have accomplices?

What do you have against her? Is she dangerous?

No. Never. He wanted me to be one, but he never would have trusted anyone else. Certainly not a girl.

She wanted to take me away from Lisa, steal my bending, and put me in prison.

I see.

If Claire did know Rudy, she was a victim. How she survived.. I don't know. But I guess I'll find out.

--your bending?

Firebending. Creating and controlling fire.

I use it to fight, but it's more than that.

It's who you are.

Exactly.

I know how that is. Why would Claire take that away from you?

I told Zuko the truth about what the army would do to him for staging a coup. She didn't like that.

..Elaborate?

I told him that they'd kill him and his allies if he continued down that path, and she took it as a direct threat.

Why was she allied with him?

I don't know. I don't know why anyone is. He's a traitor to his country and his former family.

She seems to have a thing for traitors.

She was friends with another serial killer, too, the second time she was here. And the first time she gave me something and then told everyone that I stole it from her.

She's never been a good person.